Chinese New Year. :D

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year. Everyone is outside, having loads of fun except for the poor me. A day which is suppose to be filled with laughter, but to me, its like every normal day of school weekends. Wake up at 1plus, eat, watch tv & use computer. Haha today no one is here at my house so it means… I’m at home with my dad, mum & sis. WOW WHAT A HAPPY DAY, RIGHT?

Today, the total amount of money i collected is $400. Dad gave $200, grandma gave me $100 & Doris Aunty gave me $100. Have no idea if mummy gonna give me not, really hope she’ll give me you know! >: I want money so i can buy my dslr & make me feel like a rich tai tai for a few days! HAHAHAHA.

My sis went out to get angpao & left me alone at home. Why she so mean leave me alone. :/

If im not wrong, the following day will not be as bored as today cos tmrw my cousins are coming! Saturday i am going out with my babes! & Sunday, my babes are coming to my house. HOHOHOHO. Yay. K bye.

The importance of every single person.

I have this friend. She’s just like best friend to me that we always tell secrets to & etc. Yes, i did type “best friend”. However, she isn’t my first. She’s my third. Probably becos of the position in my heart as best friend, i did not really appreciate her very much. However, i do, now. I just realise the importance of her in my heart & regretted not appreciate her every moment whenever we’re tgt. Till one day we did not talk for hours. Even we seem to be fine, but there’s this silence between both of us. Its just so different now as compared to last time. She’s someone who talks a lot. & once she stops talking to you, you’ll know that something is wrong. For 3 days, i have never felt the happiness becos I’ve been thinking about these matter everyday. Before going to school, think. See her in school, think. During lessons, think. Go home think. Nothing to do think. Keep thinking & thinking. Its just… Not nice. I really have no idea if we’re ever be like last time since you said some stuffs to certain people. But i really do hope we can be like last time. Talking in msn like some retarded, being no life tgt, saying each other, piggyback-ing you & etc. I just wanna say, sorry. I’m really sorry this time round even this is somehow the first time. You may not see the sincerity. But I’m realy sincere. Totally want to cry man.

School is making me go crazy. Everyday go home do homework just doesn’t seem right. Not touching the computer everyday seems even weirder. Is Sec 4 life like this? I wonder how did the Sec 4s last year did it. I totally just can’t accept it these way. I’m not used to it, i can’t cope with the homeworks. By the time i finish my homework, there’s no more time for me to study. & it really makes me so panicky & lost. I was so stress till i cry. Furthermore, no one in my family members actually knw how i feel. They’re not the one taking the major exam this year. They’re not studying. They’re not stress. With all those nots, do they understand how i/we feel? NO THEY DON’T. They just enjoy standing there reprimanding you, decreasing the confidence, decreasing the mood to do any homeworks. Come on la, everyone is working hard this year. & I’m not exceptional k. Can’t you see that once i get home, i do my homework? Can’t you see that I have no enough sleep? No, NO ONE can see in this family. Ha.

Its a new year, i actually thought that it would be so much better. BUT NOT. Lol, becos got exam! Haha ok lame la.

Ok i shall not say anything anymor even though i have loads of things to say becos i needa do my homework. So bye.

Happy! :D

1st! I am going back Malaysia! When?! Tmrw! HAHA. I am so happy! I do not have to stay in Singapore. I can go Malaysia to have fun with my cousins, shop, play & take photos. Oh, & my dogs in Malaysia gave birth to 3 babies! 1 girl & 2 boys! & I’m going back to take a look!
Aren’t they cute? ^^ When i get back, they should be walking & falling down. & their eyes is open already. Can’t wait to see my babies. They’re so lovely. Haha.
I’ve packed my luggage. 3 pairs of shoe, 1bag & 16 sets of clothes. Hmm. Gonna bring poloraid & take loads of photos if possible! ^^ Gonna buy film from Malaysia since daddy gonna give me $500 i think? He told me that… & buy things for my friends, hoho.

Was quite sad for one day becos had quite a bad fight with my friend…? A very close friend…….. in the past. Now, she is to me…… Still a close friend? Haha but maybe I’m not to her anymore. But it’s ok. I’ve expected it & so let it be. Merong! From the message, it gives me the feeling that she’s upset that i did not care about her health. I just think it’s too much that she said about me through online where everyone can see it when i did not say a single sentence about her. Yes its the same girl again. What… I’m so tired of her la i swear. So I’ve decided to not even say about anyone anymore unless its too much.  Anyway its my mouth, my heart, my mind & myself. I don’t think i have to care about what others gonna think about me. Becos even a friend that was once sooooooooo close to me has already taken me as a bad person. Ha, but nvm. Yes i haven’t got over the FACT & face reality. But did i interfere into your life? No i didn’t! I did not say a single sentence & even A letter to you. I keep quiet even i am in pain whenever i think back of the past. I hope i could turn back the clock & have back the time that i was with you! BUT I KNOW THATS JUST WHAT I IMAGINE. & it’ll never happen. Ya it seems like whatever i say its like i gaining sympathy & whatsoever. I don’t care anymore ok. Just know that i won’t just dump you if you need someone just becos of what you did. Today i just look at the poloraids we took, i feel so sad. My heart felt extremely bitter. & i was thinking if you kept the poloraid when we’re in Yoguru & i took a photo of myself. Cos i did kept yours… Ha. K i’m sad enough to talk about it. So i’m off about this topic.

Will blog when I’m in Malaysia i guess? Cos i am bring my lap.

Hopeless.

It’s been quite a while since i blog. I’m busy on stalking beast, outings & shows. Yes, i have actually plenty of time to blog about craps or whatsoever, but i  chose not to. The only reason is, i am lazy la k. I feel like abandoning this blog, but i feel kinda bad & stupid. Since i start a blog, i shall just continue till i am dead. Haha, right. yes, i am right. Today’s post gonna be random. I am just gonna randomly talk about stuffs that comes into my mind. So, read it if you want to. If you find this post will be like SHIT, then don’t!

Yes, look whose that on top. HE IS CALLED LEE KIKWANG. He is so cute, handsome, funny, blur & cool. I am totally in love with him. I have been stalking him through tumblr & YouTube. Gonna watch all the variety show that is related to BEAST. He always do actions in “Beautiful” that make me shout like some crazy girl. BUT IT’S OK. I love it. When he do it, he just look so cute & my heart melts.
WHO IN THIS WORLD WILL NOT LOVE HIM?! He’s just too cute & handsome not to be loved. The first time i saw him, i almost fainted. Since what’s on my mind is thinking about something that is linked to Kikwang, i shall just blog it together. Hahaha. I WENT TO THE AIRPORT TO FETCH BEAST YESTERDAY. I saw them, & i can’t believe it. There’s quite a lot of fans waiting for them. & ONE OF THE BARRIER DROPPED. Doojoon stopped & looked at the fan & helped her! OMG I AM SO JEALOUS OF THE FAN. But at least Doojoon helped, not just walking off.
(Sorry for the bad quality. & i anyhow took a photo like that.) I have a video of them walking out, gonna upload to YouTube! But there’s one fancam recording them out which is damn clear. GO CHECK IT OUT. Yoseob came out with a hoodie covering his face. Couldn’t see him, but look at his bottom. Damn cute. He wore a tight pants, holding banners from the fans & his bag dropped from his shoulder. HE WALKED TILL DAMN CUTE. Kikwang came out with hat & shades! Photo below!

Tried looking for Yoseob’s. But couldn’t.
Doojoon in front of Kikwang. COULDN’T FIND A PHOTO OF DOOJOON TOO. He came out eating a lollipop. Like some crazy boy. Hahaha.
Ok, enough of kpop.  Before i end, i want to say something. I AM STILL STALKING ONEW TOO. I will be loyal to Onew, yes i will. & i am a Lee Lover. Lee Jinki. Lee Kikwang. Lee Donghae. ♥

Jill sent me a letter through postage mail la. INSIDE CONTAINS MY HOMEWORK & MY LETTER! Haha, before that she gave me a letter that made me soooooooooooo sad. On BBQ day, she just walked pass me & stuff the letter into my hand & i got a shock. LOL. Went to a corner & read. She make it sound like she’s leaving & never gonna come back anymore. ASSHOLE.

Haha Xingwen made me laugh! She always want to kill people when you disturb her sleep, funny!!!!!

I was so bored till i spam my cousin’s wall!!! I so cute, hahahahahahhaha1 Kidding.
Jill, you’re missing me too much that you still can hear my laughter when i was laughing through the phone. Psht, if you miss me just say la. Hee.
HAHAHAHA. iPhone user should just try typing two letters. “H” & “A”. IT’S SO FUN! Make you go high even you’re sad. I WAS SO HAPPY AFTER I DID IT. So shiok. ^^

Ok, this post so lame. So boring one k bye.

Madness. !@#$%&*^@#%%@#$

I’m back! Days of not blogging, but I’m back with more fun stuffs to blog about. Had a great time. ♥

Amanda is back from China. She came my house on Thursday. Originally, we’re suppose to do our homeworks. Guess what we did in the end? Curling our hairs & play kpop songs. Was fun. With air-con. Shiok. Feels like a hotel. I helped Amanda to curl her hair. She looked like a poodle, but after a while, it looks fine. I curl my hair all by myself, hand tired like shit.

Around 4plus, the little girl say she’s hungry. Can go eat Mac earlier as dinner. Then i ok lo. Wanted to give Noreen a surprise! BUT SHE END WORK ALREADY. Stupid or what. Reach Mac around 5plus, called Noreen if she wanna go City Hall with us. She ok! She always ok one la. Amanda’s friend had to pass her U-KISS ticket. Then went City Hall to walk. Went to TopShop & other shops. THEIR CLOTHES ALL SO NICE. But damn ex. Went “Kidding Palace”! The place where SHINee went for “Hello Baby” to buy toys! Went there to touch everything even though it has been 11months. Haha, who cares! I happy can liao. Then the floor, we use our legs to slide. HAHAHA, WAS TOTALLY HIGH. Sat down & took photos.

Toilet.

There’s nothing much to do, head back home. Noreen & Amanda didn’t go home, they went my house. Hahah, & they end up eating. They complained that whenever they’re at my house, they eat. I didn’t want to eat so i can control the amt of calories i eat per day. (iPhone app. HAHAHA!) BUT I COULDN’T RESIST. >: Noreen cooked for me, yay! Nice!

Took photos!

Totally went high like shit with Amanda & Noreen. We kept singing kpop songs! Sister & Janson came! HAHAHA THEY COULDN’T STAND US TOO. We dance too!!! Then we scream & laugh. Amanda keep talking Korean language, make us laugh! Then we talk about funny things! Sister laugh till she roll off the sofa, hahaha! LAUGHED AT AMANDA & NOREEN’S STUFFS! 12am, Amanda went home. Noreen & me was tired, the house was quiet. Noreen left at 1plus. END OF THE CRAZY DAY. Was really fun. Gonna organise a kpop night soon with all those kpop lovers in my clique. ♥

OK! Today is KC Carnival. Not gonna talk much about it becos i am damn lazy. KC Carnival is hot. Ok, done. BYE. Pictures, facebook pls.

We’ve changed.

Jill said laziness is taking over me. I told her no! But now i realise, its true. Laziness is taking over me. Oh my! Jill said i lost weight too, but i think i gain weight. Still gonna on diet too, even though I’m not doing anything about diet. -.- I VERY USELESS LEH!!!!!!!!!! ARGH.

Baby, i need you now. :/ I hope you’re beside me with me everyday. Telling me jokes, talk to me, play with me & sing to me. That will really make me so happy & will not think of anything else, but you. I know you’ll never be mine, but if you’re ever mine, you’re the best gift God gave me in my life. Imagine if you’re beside me now, i would be laughing. More noise in my life, additional person in my life. (ok, i may sound like a idiot. then just take it that i’m a idiot. don’t tell me none of you ever thought of this way.)

I just looked through Amanda’s facebook profile. Those pictures for this year, 2010. Wow, we’ve changed. I mean, everyone that i know, changed. Looks, style, character & many more. My heart start to fly back to the past. & i smiled seeing Amanda looking so cute beginning of this year. Haha, i don’t know why. & having excursion was really fun. Then my mind flew to the past, flashing all those memories. I sigh-ed & smiled to myself & said this in my heart. “Hmm, everyone is changing. Thats great uh? Haha, shall just accept that people change. Even myself, changed. So why do i actually blame others for changing? Be it from good to worse or whatever. I can’t blame them, cos I’ve changed too. Don’t know good or bad, but ya.” Yah, hope i can just keep thinking this concept so i won’t be so sad at times or whatever. Hope it works.

Anyway, i may not be going Super Junior’s concert. I’m extremely upset… In Parkway with Noreen, i kept thinking about it. Suppose to go with Kayxi, but i think Kayxi wants to go with her friends? So nvm lo, since no one going with me, so i shouldn’t go even i really wanna see Donghae in real life. Seeing him dance & talk. >: Sigh, don’t know when’s the next chance to actually see him again in real life if i miss out this chance… From today 2pm my mind have been thinking about Super Junior Concert. Wonder if any of my friends wants to go not. But they’re not really a big fan of Super Junior, they are more of SHINee, same as me. But i gonna say this again! I go for Super Junior’s Concert is just becos of Donghae! I totally find my life so screwed.

You’re a bit selfish hor? Don’t you think so? Ha.

My life is getting… Quieter each day. Probably becos its holidays? Sister schooling, mother usually sleeps or out? Even she’s at home, i don’t talk to her that much. I’ll be in my room watching dramas. My friends are all kinda busy. Amanda is back from XiAn today, but no news from her. Tifflin went Vietnam. Noreen is working. Jolene just came back from Malaysia. Sonia has tennis almost everyday. Xingwen, don’t know where to go with her. I find myself damn poor thing. :/ (you good lo, got her accompany. i used to have her company everyday. now, nah. sigh.)

Choir is singing defying gravity from Glee. Haha, so good. Will be singing it for Sec 1 orientation. Can’t wait to sing. We’re singing 2 songs from Glee!

I can’t wait for school to start, really. I miss those sounds in class even its damn irritating at times. Human being are like that, we don’t appreciate things when we have it. When we do not have it, we want it, we miss it. I hope i’m not those ordinary human being that do not appreciate things. I hope i’m those special ones that actually make someone notice me in a special way that he/she have never seen before. But i’m sure it’ll never happen hor? Haha. I’m so bored till i’m talking rubbishing, thinking loads of things that will never happen. I find myself so pathetic now. Ha.

Thinking that i may not go back to Malaysia just make me feel like dying in Singapore & never wake up. Means I’m in Singaproe for 2months, not doing anything fun?! Wlao, sian ji bua only lo. If I’m not going back to Malaysia to play my head out, i really hope my cousins are coming to Singapore! >: (Pls God! Let me go back to Malaysia! If not, let cousins to come!!!)

I hate cherry season. I think the girls should know what is cherry season. MY CRAMPS ARE KILLING ME, I SWEAR. >: I hope i become a guy when its my cherry season(so no cramp, no cherry season). No more cherry season, change to girl. HAHAHA, I KNOW THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. But who cares, I’m just gonna think to make myself happy! BLEAH.

K la, go back to my show. Bye thegorgeous.

You loved me right?

回忆还是温热的，但承诺已经冷却了。 我的天真在泪水里沉沦，孤独它让我无法负荷。不用假装还爱着，舍不得，还是放开了。我的天真早就碎遍地的忐忑， 失去了所有颜色。
这次我真的痛了，真的彻底醒了。我试着洒脱换来的只是伤痕。我爱到痛了你却留下我一个人埋葬我的天真。
还能够说些什么,当快乐已经掏空了. 我的天真早就碎成遍地的忐忑努力拼凑着却再也无法完整。
这次我真的痛了，真的彻底醒了。我试着洒脱换来的只是伤痕。我爱到痛了你却留下我一个人埋葬我的天真
我哭的累了没有梦是好的。别再说爱我你给的全是悔恨。我爱到痛了你却留下我一个人埋葬我的天真。

You didn’t know you can hurt me so much uh? Read the whold thing again on top. Especially the bold words.

I’ve got a bad news. :/ I might not be going back to my hometown, Malaysia! Sister & me felt damn sad la. We thought we could go back to have fun with our cousins. Shopping, drive car, eat supper, gamble. Our happiness just immediately went down the drain. I am gonna ask daddy why we’re not going back, & ask him if we could go back. (I really hope he give me a “ok!”)

As my period is coming, I am having pms. Yesterday i just stayed in room the whole day since i came back from tuition. Daddy & Mummy did not do anything but i just give them attitude. Finding them irritating. Yet, they didn’t say anything but just kept quiet. Every month, this will happen to me & my parents. I hope i can control though? :]

Yesterday had fun with Noreen even though it was tiring. As i had the keys to Tifflin’s bicycle in East Coast that had been parked there for 4days. & she is leaving Singapore today, i will just keep her bike first. Noreen cycled me from East Coast to my house. Quite long & tiring. It was raining! I hold her bag, my bag, & an umbrella! My hand almost died. I sit on metal, she sit on cushion. My butt pain leh! We kept shouting & laughing, hahaha. Damn fun. Then Noreen cycle till i knock my knee! Both side!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :/ Pain only.

I was messaging Mizi through facebook quite a couple of days. Actually was just talking about our BBQ stuffs. Then we talk until friendship. Actually his right. If a close friend gets bored of what you’ve been troubling about, they are not your good friend. I’ve thought about that sentence for quite longg.

I wanna work. Just to kill time, just to make myself busy, just to earn some money for myself. I wanna buy a camera. Dad don’t want to buy for me. He tell me to use my own money. I told him to sponsor me $100, he asked me to get lost. HE IS DAMN HORRIBLE LA I SWEAR. So now, i want to have money! & i will have to stop shopping for now till i get my camera. Unless, i really want the clothes so badly & think its worth it. Yeah!

Yay, going out with my primary school friends on the 23. :] There’ll be fun again! But next day i have camp. Damn sian. Have to buy the food for BBQ with Mizi also. Shit la, i am damn pack on that week. Nvm, i shall find time.

K la, there’s nothing to talk about. Very sian lo now my life. -.- SHALL GO DRAG MY FRIENDS OUT.

I realise i can’t control my own life.

Its been quite a few days I’ve blogged. Reason: I went out for 1 week in a row.

My mood have been up & down. I don’t really know the true reason, but the only thing i know was.. I can’t control. Since i know i can’t control, i chose to not care about it. Thats probably why, i have been sneaking out of house for the past 7 days, including today. Yes, I am sad. But there’s isn’t much i can do. It had already happen, whatever i do, NOTHING WILL HELP. So.. Of course, i want to be happy everyday from today onwards. I’m not really sure if i can do it anot, but no mattter what, I’ll try in any way. I’m sure i can do it! Hahah.

Alright, i gotta say that i overspent this month. A lot. This month, in the Ng family, i used the most money. First, i had my shopping since i got my allowance($400). I spent a total amount of $150. Next, eating Pastamania repeatedly with my friends. Withdrawing money from my bank to buy iPhone 4 covers for my sister & mother. Next, buying Nike shoe that cost $189. Buying a schoolbag from 77th Street for $50. Buying chocolate that cost $15, & buying a clothes(somehow like scarf, but its not. Little cloth some more!) for $23. Thats it. Total, i really do not dare to go calculate. I am just avoiding the fact that i have not much money & i spent a lot of money. So therefore, i am asking back my money from people. Kayxi owes me… $45. Amanda owes me… $140. But its not really she owe, her friends owe me. But she lend it from me. So ya? If my dad found out, i am gonna get a huge nagging from him. :/ The main point is.. I HAVE TO STOP SHOPPING FOR THE TIME BEING. SAVE TILL I HAVE THOUSANDS(any thousands! Haha!). Eat less, study more! Ya. Ok, out of the point. FORGET IT. Just save money la.

Oh, there’s one night i peel my lips. Suddenly, my two finger was filled with blood. I ran to my sister’s room with my hand under my chin. She didn’t bother me cos she was doing some things. I kept calling her, she turned. She “omg!” By the time she turn, the blood flew down my hand & it didn’t stop. My sister asked me to wash it, & she looked at her floor if there’s blood. -.- I kept washing, but the blood couldn’t stop. I was so scared.

K, if she didn’t stop scolding me through her tumblr, i would have just print screen & talk about her. I give chances, but if anyone who don’t take the chance properly, too bad. You have step over my line. But I’m grateful to her that she did not. I’ll probably will be nasty, & i don’t think any of my close friends seen me thay way before. I don’t usually show such sides out except i really cannot take it. I bear, but that doesn’t mean anything. However, since I’ve said I’ll stop, i mean it.

Do you know at times, when you have the feeling that everything will be back the same. Then at the highest point of the feeling, the emotions, you do it immediately. & after a while, you regretted. I had it before, & it just happened.. Recently. I told her the main point. But after telling her, the thinking started flashing through my mind. “Why do i even bother saying it? I shouldn’t have, wlao.” So, in furture, I’ll make sure i think hard then make the choice/take action.

You’re actually so stupid, to believe what i write when i was at the highest point of feeling the anger, & sadness. In your heart, you should know how much i love you. When i told you, you tell i me don’t. My heart immediately sank down. After so much we’ve been through, after so much of my efforts, after so much of what I’ve done, after so long. You tell me, i don’t. What.. I thought by telling you again, you would respond another way. However, it was the same. At that point of time, i know there isn’t a need for me to explain any further nor show it out. I’ve stepped out the game, i should not care about anything about it anymore. Cos i know you no longer need me, care me, love me, & want me. So, its ok. I shall just keep quiet at the side, & love you spiritually. ♥

After the so called… “fight” i started, talking about you two through the net, I’ve never looked for anyone the next day. Not even my close friend. When I’m with my friends, i do think about it. But i just kept quiet, smiled & continue with what I am doing. I will tell myself,”It’s ok. It’s over la. Walk on. ” & immediately, i will try to switch to other topics, or stop thinking. Ya la, i am sad la. Psht~

I am feeling tired these few dayssssss. I should take a rest at home, & not go out for a few days. If not, my body can’t take it & fall sick. Bleh, i don’t like to fall sick becos i have to eat tablets. :/ But i want to fall sick just to want everyone’s attention on me, even though my parents do not care about me when I’m sick. Going to clinic alone, cold sweat start coming out. Waiting in the clinic shivering. Independent uh~

I want to go back to Malaysia! First, there’s good food. Yes fuck, i am going to put on weight. BUT I JUST WANT TO GO BACK. Shows how much i want to go back. Second, i want to shop. Yes fuck, i overspent. BUT THE CLOTHES THERE ARE CHEAP TTM. Shows how much i want to go back. Third, i want to see my cousins! Forth, i want the feeling of family love, happiness & fun. Fifth, i don’t want to be bored in Singapore. SO DADDY, CAN I GO BACK MALAYSIA ALONE FIRST?

Happy Birthday Noreen Baobei Darl.
Hope you like your cake that cost $18.80. Its quite small, yet so ex. YOU BETTER LOVE IT. Sorry for not preparing any presents for you cos i did not really have the time. & you should know how much i have spent. I’ll give you a better birthday next year k babe? Love you forever & ever. ♥

There’s actually nothing much for me to blog, so i want to leave this thingy & watch my show. BYE.

It’s ok. I am used to it. What’s new?

Its my shopping day today. Total, i spend $150. Bought 5 clothes, 1 pair of shoes & a pencilcase.

Meet Amanda at 1 at CityPlaza bus stop! Accompanied her to buy her boots for China tmrw. Soon, Xingwen & Noreen reached. Amanda bought her boots, ALL OF US SHOP. I was so into shopping la. Becos dad gave me extra $100 becos i asked from him. ^^ Went around looking for nice clothes, hahaha. I BOUGHT 5 CLOTHES. All damn chio ok.

Sonia came around 3plus. She shopped too, haha. Bought one pants, she came to late la. While they shop for clothes, i went to check my eyes for fun! Didn’t shop cos i cannot waste money liao. Anw, i wanna get a new specs!!!!! BUT I DON’T KNOW WHICH SPECS TO CHANGE TO. :/ I hate thinking what specs to change to will suit me better. Its so irritating. Then when you found one, you won’t dare to walk out of house cos you have this stupid feeling that everyone is giving you that weird look. Argh, hate that feeling. Glad that i am someone who wears conatct lenses.

Around 4plus, bid farewell to my baobei Noreen & cabbed down to Parkway with the remaining friends. Which is, Xingwen, Sonia & Amanda. :B They ate pastamania, i didn’t! I WAS TOO FULL FOR ANYTHING. But you know what, i ended up eating Xingwen’s leftovers. Omg, i am so gonna grow fat after losing weight from the camp. :/ I shall swim tmrw, yes, i shall.

After eating, went to Mimosa. ALL OF US FALL IN LOVE WITH TWO SHOES. Xingwen & me fall in love into the same pair. As for Sonia & Amanda, another. However, the one Amanda fall in love with, she has it alr. Just that its different colour. SONIA WANTS THE LEATHER COLOUR ONE. But not enough money, so cannot buy. She looked sad. :[ I bought the same shoe as Xingwen, but different colour. ^^ Her’s pink, mine dark blue. Very chio. Love it. ♥

Went to Cotton On. Amanda saw a damn nice jacket. I love it too, but its $29.90. I shall drag mum to Cotton On one day. ^^ Hahah, then saw one watch. SO NICE. But its too big! & while looking at clothes, a metal dropped on my toe, damn pain. Wlao. Bad luck leh me. BOUGHT THE $2 COTTON ON BUY FOR DONATION. They change the design alr, the new one nicer. ;D Haha.

Xingwen went back to Mimosa to get another pair of shoes. Haha, she has been thinking about that. Her mother allowed, so she shiok. She got so happy, & somehow hyper.

Toilet time! TOOK PHOTOS.

Took photos of the things we buy. QUITE A LOT OF BAGS ACTUALLY. But all dark colours, cannot really see the amount of it.
 Hahaha, then went to Gaint to buy Amanda’s moisturiser. Headed to Comics Collection, nothing much. WENT TO 77TH STREET. ^^ Bought the pencilcase that i have been eyeing for 2 months. I used my sister money to buy! She say i can spend her $50 as long as i help her. I WAS SO HAPPY! Hahah, my sister is nice actually. At times. No la, she’s the best sister. YOU CAN NEVER FIND SUCH SISTER IN THIS WORLD. ♥

Went to Berrylite. Took out all my clothes & take a look. Wore my new shoe too!

The pink one is Xingwen, the blue one is mine! So nice! Its $23 only. Teehee.

Laughed a lot about silly stuffs we did when we’re young. DAMN FUNNY. Bus-ed home & thats all for today!

Amanda is leaving for China tmrw. I will miss her, especially not seeing her online in msn its like… SO WEIRD. Becos she’s always 24/7. & without fail, we’ll talk. :/ Without her, who to talk to! I mean there’s people i talk to, but its just weird? Almsot all my clique will be busy during holiday. Its either overseas or CCAs. Sigh, Xingwen & me will be bored to death. BUT I HAVE CHOIR TOO. Choir camp too. Lol, nvm. TO KILL TIME. DO HOLIDAY HOMEWORK + STUDY!

Gonna ask dad if i can go hongkong with Amanda during Dec, hope he allows. But i don’t think that will happen, sigh! I WILL STILL PRAY THOUGH.

As i mention i will blog about logic stuffs when i’m back, i will. I’M STILL THINKING WHAT TO. Blog it soon. Bye! ♥

Btw, i am still stalking Onew ok! Hahah, he in Taiwan now. Hahahahahaha.

There’s still chance right?

So people, I am back from the dirty & tiring camp from Johor. The place there is dirty like shit, full of insects & creatures that can make the  girls in Katong Convent scream. The toilet is so smelly & there’s a limit amount of water. However, all in all, camp was great. ^^ Despite of all those insects & dirtiness, i love the camp. & now i am missing my trainee, Mizi. Mizi was damn fierce the first time i see him. He do not talk to us or whatever. We disliked him at the beginning. Haha. Okay, check out more about camp below. ♥

Day 1. ☺
My alram rang at 6. I was too lazy to wake up, i off my alarm. Immediately i put down my phone, Kayxi called me. So, immediately silent it & went back to sleep. Haha. Next, Noreen called me. After like 4 times of both of them calling, i woke up. Kayxi panicked, lol! I laughed even though i was feeling sleepy. Showered, Kayxi called me to confirm that I was awake, haha! Packed everything, time to go down! Kayxi’s father was downstairs waiting alr, omg. PAISEH TTM. Then we headed to school. Said bye to Kayxi’s father, went to 7-11 since my dear Kayxi do not have water. Bought a ball for her too, lol. Don’t know whats wrong with her & ball.

Went back to school, Jolene thought i just brought my school bag pack. Hahah, i lied to her since she assumed it that way. ^^ Stupid her. A lot of people was in school already. Soon, we assemble in courtyard. Talk about stuffs for camp, tell us which trainer in charge of what class, get back our passport, grab some food, go toilet.

& set off to Johor. Btw, my trainer are Joyce & Mizi.
I am amazed by how they sleep, haha!

In the bus, i start taking out my pillow to sleep. Haha, i brought my bolster & pillow. Teehee. Listened to song! “Hello” by SHINee, yeah! Reach Singapore custome then next, Malaysia custome. Checking my passport was fast becos i am a Malaysian, woohoo~ Get onto the bus, TIME TO SLEEP. Couldn’t get any comfortable spot to sleep, was so angry. However, soon, i fall asleep. 305′s trainer was in our bus, he is a joker. He is so funny. He suddenly asked us if we want to see his girlfriend, lol! Then when he want to jump, he knocked his head. DAMN FUNNY. His fun la. He is called Melvin.

Reach at our first destination, had lunch. THE LUNCH SUCKS. Shared with Tifflin. I was damn restless, haha. Went up mountain/hill, quite a number of people died. Haha, either they are dizzy or feel like vomiting. I was dizzy, but i continued. The road was damn steep, oh my. I was panting when i was climbing my way up. With the help of Jolene & Noreen, i made it. Yay me! Then went down, what a loser right. I couldn’t stop at all becos of the gravity. Tifflin, Jolene, Noreen & me made a train. We hold on the each other bag in case any of slips. Soon, we reached & got on to the bus. Was sweaty, didn’t sleep.

Campsite was ok when you look from outside. But the toilets & the grass full of weird insects, NO. Pitched our tent. Halfway through, it rained. We had to continue, i was shivering. The rain was damn cold, the rain became heavier, we had to go back. Everyone was shivering, haha. 302 bags was wet. My pillow wet!!!!!! When the rain stopped, went back to pitch our tent, my group tent wasn’t ok. We changed it for 3 times! POOR LIFE SIA US. First, the zip not working & there’s a lot of red ants. 2nd, the stick spoiled. 3rd, the stick spoiled again. FINALLY, WE HAD A GOOD ONE & DONE! :]

Had dinner, it was fabulous. ^^ Shared with Tifflin again. Haha, Amanda was like wlao, you two want to be lovely dovey uh. We’re sweet uh! ♥

After dinner, had night walk. Saw firefly, so nice. ^^ 302 was damn cute. There’s a puddle of water, from the first person pass down till the back without anyone asking us to do it. Cutest was, the first person purposely say it wrongly, they don’t see, they just say. HAHA. Leona’s shoe spoiled. MADE NOREEN & ME LAUGH LIKE SHIT. Hahaha.

After nightwalk, showered with Noreen. Jill, Alicia, Mandy & Christa showered together, without clothes. TOTALLY HEARD THEIR CONVERSATIONS. Damn funny. My dear Kayxi was so cute that she went around calling my name ot find me. My classmate was finding her noisy & start teasing her. Finally after a long long time, she found me. Leona, Gloria & Jolyn saw Kayxi & me, they will stat to tease Kayxi again. “Jaime! Where’s Jaime? Did you see Jaime?” HAHAHA, CUTE ONLY LOR KAYXI.

Kayxi was complaining about sleeping problems. Haha, couldn’t help much. So i just say nvm la. Haha. Poor her, i bet she’s missing me so much when she’s in her tent. :p

I somehow had a good sleep, even though its quite hot after Denise & Gloria zip up the tent becos its raining soon.

Day 2. ☺
Washed up with Noreen. Had breakfast, wasn’t very nice. I didn’t eat at all. I ate my Hello Panda. Mizi came over to me & my friends, talking about our class full of cliques. & he wants to see cat fight between us. -.-  Haha, then had water obstacle. Thsoe classes that had Nature Walk first was damn lucky. ONE OF THE CLASS IS 303. Becos they do not have to walk being wet, argh. Water obstacle was quite fun. ^^ There’s full of mud in the water. When you step on the mud too long, you’ll stuck there. Or maybe, your shoe. Haha. Got closer to my friends becos we was there for one another when we needed help, haha. The water has dead insects too, ewwww. D: Our trainer Mizi was so nice, haha. His so funny, finally! HE TALKED TO US NICELY. He got wet cos of us too, cos our shoe stuck, he went into the water & take it out. So nice, at the moment, wowww. Cool. ^^ After 2h of water obstacle, went to boat rafting. Had a hard time. We have to build a raft that can allow minimum of 10 person to be sitting on top.

Next, we somehow canoe. I partner with Tifflin. Reach the reaching point, i lay down. Shiok uh! ^^ Then we canoe until very far afterwards, Mizi pulled us back. So shiok, teehee!

Had lunch! Next Nature Walk. DAMN TIRING, DAMN HOT, DAMN BORED. I wanted to sleep so badly la. Mizi saw us so restless, he gave us sweets. Then we talked to him, not caring about the guider(?) talking. Mizi’s favourite sentence,”In your face!” HAHAHA, WE GOT INFLUENCED BY IT. Psht~ Around 3 plus, went back. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! Suppose to to be campfire preparation, but everyone was restless, Mizi let us shower. ^^ Showered with Noreen, & beside was Jolene & Sonia. Assemble at 4, & everyone had sunburn. I HAVE TWO TONE NOW ON MY LEG BECOS I FOLD MY TRACKPANTS. I conplained to Kayxi, hahahahaha. Then we prepare our campfire cheer under the hot sun when we just shower. I WAS SWEATING ALR LA. Went into the hall & practice. After practising, I WENT TO MY TENT & SLEEP. Kayxi came in & disturbed me, horrible her! I fell asleep. Hee!

Kayxi’s 303 sign on her face. Haha. ♥

DINNER TIME. Afterwards, CAMPFIRE. Was damn niceeeeee.The whole Sec 3 seperated to half. 302 with 303, 304 & 305. We keep giving each other sexy claps, macho claps, gu niang clap & etc! HAD SO MUCH FUNNNSSSSSSSSSSS. ^^ “Peel Banana peel peel banana. Shake banana shake shake banana. Chop banana chop chop banana. Eat banana eat eat banana. Flush banana flush flush banana.” WOOOOOO~  Kayxi shine the torchlight on me, argh! Had performance class by class. MY CLASS WAS THE LOUSIEST. WE FORGOT EVERYTHING. Damn paiseh. Then Mizi came out with stupid funny cheers for the whole sec 3, lol, make me laugh at him only. Then the teachers came out to do some funny action, woo!!!!!!!!! HAD DISCO. ♥

9plus ended, had reflection with our form teachers. Wash up with Jolene & Kayxi. Preparing to sleep around 10plus, hahaha! But Kayxi couldn’t sleep, so i pei her. She came into my tent. She fall asleep in my tent becos i had a pillow & a bolster. Let her sleep awhile, then woke her up. We went to eat banana cake. NICEEE~ After eating, went back to our tent & sleep.

Day 3. ☺
Woke up late, hahah. 6 must wake up, but my tent people woke up at 6.17am. WE’RE SUPPOSE TO ASSEMBLE AT THE HALL AT 6.30AM. Gosh! When i woke up, Kayxi was standing outside looking for me. Haha. Leona & Jolyn tease her again. “Finding Jaime ah?” HAHAHA. Then i went out, wash up with her.

Fuck, my stomach start to hurt so badly while holding the torchlight for Kayxi. It was really so pain that i begin to have cold sweat. After Kayxi finished washing up, i walked out, i almost fainted. Luckily Kayxi held me. She said my face is turning pale. I just know that at the moment, i see black spots, blacking out very soon. Walked to the hall slowly, & went to the toilet with the company of Noreen. Thanks Noreen! ♥ Went to the toilet 8 times. I ALMOST DIED IN THE TOILET. Staying in the toielt with lizards & insects, I’m sure they’re loving it.

Finally, my tummy was feeling quite alright, i became so hyper. Becos I’m happy that I’m no longer in pain. ^^ THE FIRST THING I DO IS TO LOOK FOR XINGWEN.
Jaime: Xingwennnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!
Xingwen: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS?????????
Jaime: HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
Xingwen: THANK YOUUUUUUUUU.
HAHAHA, both of us so pei each other. ^^ Ate lunch with Kayxi & Tifflin. HAHAH. Kayxi lied that she’s taking for someone else, but no! She ate 2 servings. After 2 servings, she’s still hungry. Haha, she hasn’t change. EAT A LOT.

After lunch, was time to keep the tents. Saw a big big big spider, gross. Then Mizi helped some of us. & he hinted the whole Sec 3 that the place isn’t clean yet, & the toilets are messy. The 302 are so nice to clean the toilet, & he is damn proud of us. Haha, then we was like fighting. He crossed his heart to treat us PizzaHut! HAHAHA, SO YES. We’ll be eating PizzaHut, SOMEDAY. HAHA. He so nice even though he is so dao in the beginning.

302-ians with Mizi & Joyce. ♥

While waiting for the bus to come, look what happened.

CATFIGHT BETWEEN KAYXI & SONIA. As i mentioned on top, Mizi wants to see catfight. & Sonia cross her heart that she will show him catfight. SO HERE IS IT. Haha, Sonia won. LOLLOL! Mizi started laughing so badly.

Had reflections with form teacher. Had some feedback form. Ms Nadira said I’m a baby. Then she did the action i do that makes her think i am a baby, lol! I FELT SO PAISEH. Mizi & Joyce talked to us too, cos Ms Nadira asked them too. Mizi & Joyce said 302 is cute. HAHAHAH, THEY LOVE US DON’T THEY! Awwwwww. ♥ Mizi said that he had the best memories, in a all girl school. BEST. He also say he will try not to miss us. He told us the reason why he was so dao on the first day.
Mizi: As for why you all thinking Mizi put on a strict face for first day is becos i am shy in front of girls, thats why i do not know how to communicate. Thats why i joined outdoor activites to overcome being shy.
HAHAHA, I WAS LAUGHING WHEN HE SAID THAT, SOMEHOW LA~

 Soon, the bus came! Once i get onto the bus, i took out my pillows & sleep. I was the first one that fall asleep, feel like a pig. I was too tired la k! Slept for like 2h straight. Haha. Bus stopped at petrol station. Almost all the Sec 3 went down to buy food. I bought chips & drinks. ATE IN THE BUS. Felt so awake, everyone in the bus was so hyper becos we had our nap.

Reached Malaysia custome. Hee, i used the machine to just enter. Cool right me~ Next, Singapore custome. ^^ Kayxi smsed me & lied to me she got caught for chewing gum. STUPID HER!

In the bus, everyone got so high. Amanda, Tifflin & myself tweeted with our phones. Victoria started all the jokes. “OMG! SINGAPORE’S TREE!!!!!!!” *screamssssssssss* The whole bus started to vibrate with our loud screams & laughters. Lili acted like we’re in airplane. Hahah, talk about safety & then end off with thank you. Haha. “Now we’re 50 feet above ground.” There’s a lot of jokes in the bus, make everyone so high made me so sad that the camp has ended.

Reached school, said bye to everyone. Left for pastamania with Tifflin & Noreen. ^^Ate my Turkey Bacon Chessy Crumble!

Went home at 7plus, i didn’t shower till 10pm. HAHAH. I’m sure everyone shower immediately la. But i didnt! :X I watch tv. Daddy called & i told him i having a tummyache. HE INSISTED THAT I GO SEE A DOCT. I didn’t want to, he got so angry & just hang up. After a while, mum called if i needed to go to hospital. I told her, nvm i’m fine. She told me if i don’t feel well, call her, she’ll bring me to hosp. Dad called again, he sounded so angry. Say i’m always not going to a doct when I’m not well at all.
Dad, thats becos i hate eating medicine. I CAN’T EAT TABLETS. & whenever i go to the doct, i will get scolded by them for not knowing how to eat tablets. :/

Okay, thats all about camp! I REALLY MISS CAMP & MY INSTRUCTOR. Love them! ♥

I’m touched when you looked for me constantly.♥